Google and Apple are in a fight . . .

I think it has been a week since the last time I wrote.  However, I feel like I have a legitimate excuse and it is Not my fault.  I was complaining to my husband about our internet and how slow and unreliable it was acting all of a sudden and then after a few days I noticed it was only two websites that I frequented.  Gmail and Blogger.  Both Google companies.  He then informed me that Google and Apple are in a fight, so whether accurate or not, I surmised that Google somehow has it in for all of us Apple users.  I love my Mac and pretty annoyed at whatever Googles real issues are.  There you have it my excuse.  Corporate America.  Who else could I blame.  They ruin everything right?  Right?  Ha!

As I write, I am taking turns with my four year old being shot and shooting him in return as he laughs and says, "hahaha you died and you are bleeding."  A little disturbing perhaps.  With all the violence and crimes and sadness that are abundant in this  sad time people are always looking for answers as to why.  Why would someone shoot a school full of innocents?  Why would someone take their families lives and their own?  Why would someone . . . ?  I think the answers are far more complex and based on those individuals than anyone can surmise.  '

To swing the train of thought a bit, I have always been surprised with the very nature of boys, at least my boys.  They are drawn to weapons,  they are drawn to wrestling, they are drawn to all the things that would suggest their very spirits were warriors in the life before.  They are aggressive and protective and defend what they consider to be their own.  I am pretty sure, unless he is staying up nights without my knowledge watching war movies, that my four year old has had minimal exposure to violent movies, or shows with gun fights and killing and graphic blood.  He does have three older brothers which I am sure have taught him the minor details, but the fact that as kids boys play guns, they play cops and robbers, they act out these things makes me wonder about their very nature and what is ingrained in them just as animals are given instincts to survive.  

My husband and I were watching our one year old attack may be a strong word, but yell and charge after his older brother took a toy.  Fight or flight right there.  He is practically baby, yet he was defending what he thought was rightfully his and was willing to do whatever it took to get it back.  Kind of amazing really.  Not that I want my boys to grow up and be violent murdering humans, but I hope that with some good teaching moments and morals they will be able to hone that nature in and use it to stand up for themselves, their families and what they believe is right.

I hope that they will become strong in their convictions and love themselves enough to have to courage to stand up to bullies, to stand up for others being bullied, to not cower when faced with something scary.  Fear is much too powerful.  I myself have been a victim of fear for far too much of my life.  However, I remember as a little girl not being afraid of anything.  I wasn't afraid to try new things,  I wasn't afraid to speak my mind, I wasn't afraid to lose because I believed I could and would always win.  Unfortunately, we all taste fear eventually.  I hope that I can teach my boys how to deal with fear better than I have.  I know it can be done.  I hope that I can teach them to use their nature to their advantage, not to hurt others, but to protect themselves and make them stronger men in the long run.  

So, to you Apple and Google, for my sake I hope you figure your fight out, but at the same time, it is pretty impressive the fight you have taken on to become so successful.  One, can only hope that there is still a small amount of integrity left in both of your companies and not just sheer greed.  More people in this world need to hold onto that fight.  More people need to not care about the fear and take the risks needed to grow.  More people need to find that animal instinct inside of us, stand up and be instead of settle for what is easiest, myself included.