Lost in my mind.

My mind is a dark and a dangerous place.
It won't let me forget all the things I wish I could erase.
It holds me hostage to my fear and my pain.
I can't escape the memories, the hurt still remains.
My mind is a dark and a dangerous place.
I don't know how to even Plan an escape.
The black it pulls at every waking breath.
Strangling each inhale heavy on my chest.
My heart in my throat feels about to explode.
I wish the thoughts that haunt would erode.
Distract they say, keep busy and breathe.
Find your peace in fulfilling things.
Fresh air sunshine meditate but nothing seems to release me completely.
My mind is a dark and dangerous place.
Triggered by phone calls like a bomb in the night.
Music and words send my thoughts spiraling
Into an abyss thick with the fog of the past.
I can't pull myself out of this sinking hole I'm in.
My bed seems like the only safe place to rest.
Sleep off the pain and exhaustion I try.
The blackness turns blue for a little while.
It grows dark again the longer I stay awake
Fading into nightmares and reminders in the night.
My mind is a dark and a dangerous place.